Daily Bread (Week 19)
Dinner! This last week I had 3 square (real food) meals each day. It is rather fun and a little crazy making at the same time. I even got to eat actual dinner with my wife. It is starting to work, but still hard. Planning and cooking is something I got out of the habit of doing. Then there is the weighing, measuring, and counting everything I eat. I have an app on my phone that I can use to record everything which is much easier than pen and ink, plus it does the math for me. I used to be great at math, but as I age, I seem to make a few more mistakes when adding. I am still compulsive. I bake several large pans of veggies, one of cauliflower and two of zucchini. I let Anne eat some of them, but I get jealous if she eats too much as I want them to last for several days. Fighting over veggies rather than potstickers, oh my. Slowly and surely I am getting into a routine, 3 real meals and 3 product snacks. One challenge this week was been the temptation to snack. We had some family over on Sunday and although I had hummus and red bell peppers out for me, they brought salami, cheese and crackers. The cheese and crackers did not tempt me, but the salami was another matter. I ate 3-4 slices, not horrible, just fine really, and I counted the calories, but it was really hard to stop with those few slices. Better not to start.
It is definitely more stressful trying to manage my calorie intake while getting a good balance of nutrients. The meal replacements did all that and I did not have to think while on them. I am grumpy and short-tempered (more than usual!) and my dear wife puts up with a lot. If anything would make me want to quit the program, being impossible to live with would be it. Hopefully my emotions will even out once I have this meal thing figured out better.
This week in class, we did some simple strength building exercises. I will try them on days I can’t swim. The air quality hasn’t been great with all the fires and the smoke drifting into the bay area, and that has kept me indoors more.
We did go to Tiburon for a few hours last week and I put this pic up on Facebook. Folks commented that I am looking good. One even said I am melting! Maybe so, maybe so,
(My stats for the last week – down 4.6 pounds, drank over 7 gallons of water and exercised for 220 minutes – I definitely made up for my 1.5 gain last week. My total weight loss so far is 47.3 pounds.)